Category Archives: Poetry

DEMONS, DEMONS

“Demons” represent any negative thoughts or energy that may haunt you. For me, demons are things that have hurt me in the past, anything that upsets me or fears in general. Sometimes, I want to stay in the negativity and allow myself to get upset. We are all guilty of this. I just wanted to share and see what the world thinks, I have struggled with anxiety and some depression my entire life, and sharing this allows me to release some of that.

DEMONS, DEMONS

Demons, Demons I don’t know if I am running away or chasing after you?

These thoughts are killing me, yet aide me in such a twisted way
Everyday, loneliness keeps me company, and so do you.

I can’t seem to escape from you, but do I really want to?

Demons, Demons, you’re following me it seems

But, am I holding your hand?

Have I given you the coordinates to my destination?

Or is it you that already knew my plan?

Maybe I don’t want you gone, maybe I want you to come along.

What if, I am running from some, and welcoming others?

Pleasure is laced with darkness sometimes,

Pain wears an unrecognizable disguise.

How could I even tell the difference?

Are you dragging me down or am I pulling you along?

We are inseparable, that is the truth.

I must admit it. I want you here. Yes all of you.

Demons, Demons, you are part of me

It is you that has me chained, and I can’t get free.

Whether or not I have the choice, I’ll never be too sure

Because once I sense you’re not around

I feel myself searching for you once more.

Demons, Demons, oh how I despise you

Thoughts racing through my mind just to remind me

That this game we play, will never be through

You’re to stay, it is might as well be true.

If you were to leave me now, new ones would surely find me

Demons, Demons oh how I embrace you.

 I enjoy the sensations you create inside me.

Oh, I crave the chaos sometimes.

So, I’ll stop running for the slightest moment.

Just to allow you to attack me, harass me, and destroy me once again.

Demons, demons I wouldn’t be myself without you.

Eventually I’ll start to flee and pretend that it’s you I’m running from,

yet we both know that this isn’t over, and this will never be done.

I’ll Hold Out My Hand

I’ll Hold Out My Hand

Walking away isn’t nearly as hard as not turning around.

I wasn’t suppose to fall for you, yet here I am on my knees

You left me right where you found me.

 I’m wishing you would come pick me up again.

I’m drowning without you, but in your presence I will surely suffocate.

I know you aren’t coming back, but here I wait.

Do I turn around, go forward, or stay right where I am?

I reach out for your hand, and call out your name.

This was never apart of our plan, things may never be the same.

The emptiness lingers around me,

Keeping me company to remind that you’re really gone.

Will you come back for me?

Will I still be here if you return?

What if, I turned around?

Would you be there where I found you

Waiting for me to come back to you, too?

Lines Of Us

The worst kind of pain is the type that doesn’t even hurt.

You are the tear I didn’t let fall.

The missed opportunity I couldn’t take.

The disappointment to my expectation.

You are everything and nothing at all.

Pieces of our heart were tossed into an untraceable hole that we fell into blinded,

While we were picking them up, we decided to mix them with each other’s pain

Now we can’t seem to figure out whose piece we are trying to put back together,

Maybe we are trying to put each other together again, or looking for the pieces we left behind.

We are running away from each other only to turn around and do it all over again.

When will it be the last time, only one more time.

Closer yet farther apart, alone yet together, free but yet chained,

A perfect mix of right and wrong, choices of uncertainly fulled with indecisive thoughts.

For now, or for tomorrow, for today, but not later.

I am de-attached but completely connected.

Always and Never…

Solitude and Romance

No-More

Solitude and Romance

To be in love or to chase a dream

We must be stuck somewhere in-between

Either its you or me, how can we be free?

From this life, from our pain

Sometimes it feels like it is all just a game.

To be alone or to be together,

Whether or not

To go our separate ways

Maybe, it will all go away

And we can be happy for another day.

Solitude and romance are too opposite ends,

Is it possible to have both, do we have to pretend?

Why should we have to pick

To be in love or to chase a dream

When we can be stuck somewhere in-between.

Alone is Home

Alone is Home

Safe in the shadows of the world

Hoping to be invisible to all that is around

Eventually quietness surrounds her soul

 Soon the sadness from the past comes flooding in

Memories rise back to the surface

Those she thought were buried long ago

They cannot be forgotten and shouldn’t be remembered

Pain left unhealed, wounds left still bleeding

Scars of yesterday gradually fading away

Only to reappear tomorrow the same as they were today

Wishing the future would soon appear

Because happiness awaits in that far horizon

In which the sun has secretly already set in

It feels so far away, yet it is so near

She feels powerless and unable to change a thing

Agony starts building up inside her mind

Suffocating the present moment

Drowning her with mixed emotions creating her personal apocalypse

Knowing only one can save her from herself

To rescue her from this place she visits too often

This place of emptiness, this state of being alone

This place that is starting to feel a lot like her home

A poem I wrote when I was having thoughts about my past relationships. I wanted my ex to be the one to take away all the pain but now I know that I was always the only one who could rescue myself from the emptiness.

Poetic Feelings

Poetic Feelings

I wouldn’t take back any of the days that we spent together.I wouldn’t wish my life any different than it is right now.

Yet I find myself thinking if only the moments we lived with one another were longer. But I can’t ponder.

I must go on each and every day and learn to leave those who walked away.

They always seem to find their own stealthy way to creep into the cracks of my mind.

Between the holes in my wall I continue to build up so high. Soon I’ll be hearing the words they used to say.

Holding back the tears I try not to cry. I must not let these thoughts consume me.

Although the pain feels like needles running through my veins. I have to remain in the here and now. But how?

There is no way to completely forget the love I gave to you. Remembering our past is becoming a difficult task.

The life we made will only continue to fade. Even as time flies by I still question why?

Decisions you made will forever be yours to own and it’s not my fault you never picked up the phone.

Maybe you’re a little too lost to understand yourself maybe I’m too far gone to care.

The reasons you left will always be yours to hold. Our future we planned will never unfold.

This is your fate that you planned. Goodbye. That date is craved on our conscious for the rest of our lives.

So every time i start missing you, it wasn’t me it was you who was through.

I gave you my all and you watched me fall. I must never regret feeling any of the emotions

I felt for you because at one time they were true.

We must live and learn. Love and forgive.

With All the Broken Pieces of My Heart

This is a poem, I wrote about my ex-boyfriend last year, it bought tears to my eyes when i read it again and i felt the need to share it with the world because now that he isn’t apart of my life, the meaning really touches me in a way I can’t explain. Here’s to anyone who has ever lost someone who was there to heal their broken heart from their troublesome past. I will never forget him. I will always cherish him in my heart.

With All the Broken Pieces of My Heart

I love you with every piece of my broken heart, I have right from the start

When pain and sadness is all you know it is hard to believe what you show,

Your kind sweet words soothed me, proved to me the truth

Showed me the path out of the dark shadows of my past

You saved me from myself, from my insecurities eating away in my mind

Consuming me and capturing me in a prison filled with agony and regret

You lead me out, freed me from that horrible sentence, to feel happy again is amazing as ever

I never want to be locked up again so now I have to begin

To forget the bad and allow the good to always be present

Please don’t ever go, my handsome hero…take me to paradise in your arms

It doesn’t hurt when I am there, thanks to your love and care

It is where I always want to be, I will never leave you

Cause if I did I would return as a prisoner as well as a victim to myself

This ensures I will never go, I couldn’t leave the one who stole my heart

And put it back together, yes it is true

I loved you from the start with all the broken pieces of my heart.